Rebecca Leigh Clews

It was October 08. Im pregnant again " oh my god! ". Panic will it happen to us again.

Our son Joshua was born in August 06,10 wks early.
My placenta stopped working properly when i was 21 wks pregnant. This was noticed when i was about
27 wks,when i was 29 wks i had 2 lots of steriod injections to help my son's lungs to cope if he was
born early. Then i was transferred to hope hospital as they have got facilities to deal with very
premature babies. Then at 30 wks they decided i needed a c section. Joshua weighed 2lb and spent 10
weeks in a incubator. He is now nearly 3 years old and suffers with chest problems. He was lucky
though.It is very distressing to watch your tiny child fight for their life. This was are panic.
Like i said he was lucky but would are new baby be. We never got answers to why my placenta had
stopped,so would this happen AGAIN.

As you may quess it did!

Because of my past history,I had to have monthly anti-natel checks and scan's. At 17 weeks i was put
on aspirin to try and prolong the function of my placenta. On the 2nd of March we found out our baby
was a little girl YEAH!!!
A girl to go with our boy 1 of each, perfect!

Monday 30th march 09 my next scan. During my scan my partner was talking to the sonographer about my
placental problems with my previous pregnancy and our son. Due to this conversation she scanned me
again to check my placenta. (they were still waiting for my records to be sent from the hospital i
was under with my son.) Our worst fears confirmed it was happening again.I suppose we knew then it
was good-bye!.
I was admitted to hospital ans was told i would once again be transferred to a hospital with that
special facility. This could be to anywhere in the country, as i was only 24 wks 3 days. I began to
feel unwell having hot flushes and dizzy spells. The following day(tuesday) i had another scan. This
time things looked ok. ( a glimmer of hope ) Thay decided i would have to stay in hospital and have
another scan two days later,then i would be transferred.During this time i was regulary put on a
fetal heart monitors and given the 2 lots of steriod injections to prepare her lungs for delivery by
c section. Which is why they were transfering me. However the next evening (wednesday) during one of
the heart monitorings her heart rate had gone up quite a lot. I was told the doctor would come and
see me. I phoned my partner Steven and he made arrangements to get to me at whatever time if he
needed to. I waited and waited for the doctors. I had apparently fell asleep WHEN he came and he
didnt want to wake me. The next morning (thursday) i prepared for my transfer. I had niggly stomach
pains but my scan showed no problems. They then decided to send me home telling me my placenta would
probably work some days and not others.Although i had stomach pain,because my scan looked fine, they
still sent me HOME!

I was still having hot flushes and dizzy spells throughout friday and saturday.

Saturday 4th april 09
During the day i had abdominal pain like trapped wind. It was about 9.30pm went i to the toilet. I
was bleeding ("god please help my baby") I shouted steven,i was hysterical. He also began to
panic.He ran next door to get his mum to phone a ambulance.
The operator kept asking was i clotting, i wasnt but not realizing at the time i wouldnt i was on
aspirin. Steven was stressing in the back ground as his mum (Paula) spoke to the operator while my
mum (Nicola) sorted me out.He was shouting "we need to go to hope. Nowhere else can save her, our
baby is gonna die. Hurry the f**k up".

However we had to be taken to the Royal Oldham hospital where i was having anti-natal treatment.
On arrival i was taken into a delivary room to be examined. I was put on the fetal heart monitor
once again. The midwife couldnt tell if it was baby's heart beat or mine. They gave me a scan, there
it was her heart was still beating (once again a glimmer of hope, one very short lived) Stevens mum
phoned my mum who was looking after our son to tell her. There was a heartbeat.Just 14 minutes later
it was totally different story.

I can't remember much about this bit so i am writing it as i was told off my partner and his mum.
They had obviously decided i was staying in hospital so was going to insert a cannula, so as the
doctor prepared that the midwife was trying to pick up the baby's heartbeat on the monitor.
I suddenly went really hot and felt very sick. I then apparently passed out. The midwife hit the big
red alarm button and the room was full of midwives and doctors.
Steven and his mum was asked to wait in the waiting room.It was decided i urgently had to go to
theartre. I was bleeding internally. They got Steven and his mum back in the room because i had come
round and wanted them. They continued to prerare me for theatre. A few minutes later they rushed me
to theatre. I remember as i fell asleep i could still see my baby on the scan image and her heart
was beating. I told a nurse to tell Steven whatever happens to remember i loved him. I made her
promise. I dont know how long i was asleep but when i woke up i wanted my baby.
I was still in theatre, so Steven couldnt be with me when they told me our beautiful little girl had
died.
I had suffered a placental abruption.

Seconds before thay got her out, her heart stopped beating. Due to her prematurity they couldnt get
her heart beating again.
I was once again hysterical.My baby was gone.

At 11.41pm our baby had a heartbeat and we had hope. At 11.56pm she was gone, born asleep

The pain that seared through my body was unbeable.

For the next two days i nursed and slept with my daughter. Steven and i spent special time with her
and let her big brother Joshua meet his little sister. We have photo's and memories that we will
treasure forever.

All as we want now is answers.....well thort i have to up date because i know what i have got now.
i have antiphospholipid antibody syndrome.

Rebecca leigh Clews Mummy, Daddy, your big brother Joshua & all the family love you and miss you so
much. We just wish you could be with us today xxx

You will never be forgotten or replaced we love you so much sleep tight our sleeping princess xxx We
think about you every day..x

Lots of love Mummy and Daddy xx